365 Days of Finding My Breath

365 days ago, I stopped taking my “medication.”

After two decades of being prescribed at least one pill a day - it has been 365 days without a pill.

365 days without swallowing my pride, swallowing my intuition, swallowing my sense of self trust.

It had been a long time coming and there had been many times before when I stopped taking pills, out of anger and frustration, out of showing them I could “do it,” out of wanting to prove something.

But this time…THIS TIME is different.

This time actually come from a place of faith rather than fear.
This time came from a place of planned out, strategic self care and admiration.
This time it was about ME and what I Want.
This time, somewhere deep down I believed I actually had the power to trust my own emotional capacity enough to live without mood stabilizers.

So here I am - One year without pills and still alive.  Some days with more struggle than others, but ultimately - each day better off than before.

(My medicine looks like this now.  Photo taken by Me)

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